Dealing With Anxiety: Why You Have A Hard Time Facing Your Fears

By Anni


Confession: I looove inspirational quotes.  I spend some time every single day reading them, I have Pinterest boards devoted to them, and I have my desk drawers stuffed with print-outs of them.  I often delight innocent bystanders by reading them out loud. 😉

I haven’t gone as far as plastering all my walls with them yet, but I can feel a strong urge to do just that coming on even now as I’m writing this.  Pretty fonts…  Sleek frames…  Getting a different dose of inspiration every time I carry a laundry basket from one room to another…  Pure bliss!

But.

There used to be a particular category of inspirational quotes that would totally ruin my inspiration-seeking sessions.  It was quotes targeted at people dealing with anxiety that tell you to “face your fears.”  Instead of inspiring me, these quotes would a) totally deflate me and b) totally piss me off.  Seeing one of these quotes in my Pinterest feed would result in me whispering a quiet “f*ck you” at my phone from where I fantasized my response to the quote would be magically transported to whatever monster had dared post such nonsense on the internet.

Double f*ck you if the quote also included the words “bravery” or “courage”.

For even though I didn’t know what exactly was blocking me or what I was lacking, I knew it wasn’t bravery or courage.  Wasn’t I brave for just getting out of bed in the morning (most days anyway) when each today would feel like worse torture than the yesterday before it?  “So f*ck you for telling me to do even more than what I’m already enduring,” I would angrily rant at the quote poster I was picturing in my mind.

Totally oblivious to the fact that the quote wasn’t directed at me personally. 🙂

Of course that wasn’t the only thing I was oblivious to those days.

That was when everything was enveloped in darkness.

That was when I was drowning in depression and anxiety.

That was then.

These days, things are looking much brighter.

These days, I actually sometimes seek out those same quotes that I used to curse with such abandon.  (Secretly of course.  When I can be sure nobody is looking.  And I won’t pin them so there’s no evidence. 😉 )

Because now I’m ready for those quotes.  Because now they inspire me.

Because I figured out what I was actually lacking.  And I got myself some of it.

Wanna know what it was?

Well, it wasn’t bravery or courage.

What I was actually lacking was strength and motivation.

And once I found those two things, facing my fears wasn’t just one more thing I had to endure anymore.  It was something to look forward to.  It was something to get excited about.

This may sound super simple at first glance, but let me assure you that getting to this point was not easy.  To be honest, it took me forever and a day to figure out how to get from “f*ck you fear facing” to “excited about fear facing”.

So assuming you, dear reader, are also dealing with anxiety, let me share with you more details about the two reasons I was having a hard time facing my fears just in case this is something you can relate to as well.

Dealing with anxiety: I used to have a hard time following the common anxiety advice to "face your fears". Here's why I was having a hard time and how I was able to make facing my fears something to look forward to rather than something to dread.

Dealing With Anxiety: Why You Are Having A Hard Time Facing Your Fears

1. You Are Exhausted

The first reason I was having a hard time facing my fears was that I didn’t have the physical or mental strength to do it effectively.

Dealing with anxiety is not a walk in the park.  It’s hard and scary and stressful.  It’s often preceded by years of enduring toxic environments and dysfuntional relationships.  It’s often accompanied with depression.  It’s exhausting.

When my anxiety progressed to the point where I was feeling anxious literally 24/7 and I didn’t even know why I was anxious anymore, I was in no condition to “face my fears”.  Hell, I didn’t even know what my fears were.  Everything?  Life?

I did try facing “everything” for a long time.  I would go about doing everything exactly the same as I always had.  Facing life as it came.  Enduring.  Not avoiding.  Pushing through.

But it didn’t help.  My anxiety didn’t improve.  If anything, it kept getting worse.

What finally got me out of the 24/7 dread was not facing more fears, but doing the exact opposite.

Yes, dear reader.  I did what they tell you not to do.  I started avoiding.

I literally cut back on as many activities as I could.  I started saying no to anything that wasn’t absolutely essential.  I went to work and did what I needed to for my kids and that was it.  I stopped doing everything that had the least bit of potential for stressing me out and that I didn’t absolutely have to do.

I got as much sleep as I possibly could.  I spent many Saturdays staring at the ceiling in a dark room.  I exercised every day.

In other words, I focused on taking care of myself.

I focused on doing everything in my power to avoid stress, to avoid fear triggers, and to help my body relax.

For several months.

Until eventually the tension started to lift.

Until eventually my body learned how to relax again.

Until eventually I wouldn’t be experiencing anxiety every second of every day anymore.

Until eventually there were a lot more relaxed moments than anxious moments.

Until eventually there were a whole lot more relaxed moments than anxious moments.

And only then was I physically and mentally strong enough to face my fears.

A different way this time.

More thoughtfully.  More intentionally.  And much more selectively.

2. You Are Facing The Wrong Fears

The second reason I was having a hard time facing my fears was that my fear facing efforts were misguided.  I was facing the wrong fears.

More specifically, I was facing the kind of fears that had no reward on the other side.  I would put all this effort into facing a fear, enduring it, pushing through it, letting myself feel discomfort.  Doing things anyway.

And then nothing.  I would get nothing out of it.  Nothing good would happen.  My life wouldn’t get any better.  I wouldn’t feel any happier.  I wouldn’t feel any more fulfilled.

In other words, I wasn’t rewarded for my efforts.

And the more I repeated this, the less motivated I would become.  I mean, obviously.  What’s the point?  F*ck you, fear facing!

It was only when I started facing fears from a place of physical and mental strength and with thoughtful intention, in service of a better life for myself, that fear facing became my friend.

Let me illustrate the difference between the wrong kind of fear facing and the right kind of fear facing with some examples from my life:

Facing The Wrong Fears

  • Facing my fear of driving in order to get myself to a job I hated.  Reward: Another day at a job I hate.
  • Facing my fear of conflict and criticism in order to deal with dissatisfied clients at work.  Reward: Not losing the job I hate.
  • Facing my fear of feeling awkward when meeting new people in order to go to a party.  Reward: Headache.

Facing The Right Fears

  • Facing my fear of disappointing people so that I’m able to say no to a party invitation.  Reward: A relaxing evening at home recharging and reading a book.
  • Facing my fear of disapproval so that I’m able to set boundaries. Reward: Less time spent on activities that drain me and more time spent on activities that energize me.
  • Facing my fear of uncertainty and failure so that I’m able to leave a job I hate to become self-employed. Reward: Doing work I love.
  • Facing my fear of rejection and criticism so that I’m able to publish my writing on the internet. Reward: Living my passion and purpose.

To-Do: Take Care Of Yourself + Look For Fears That Have A Pot Of Gold On The Other Side

Dear reader, if you are dealing with anxiety, my best advice for you is to first put your focus on taking care of yourself.

Whatever it takes.

And second, put your focus on figuring out what fears are holding you back from a better life.  Then face those fears.

Whatever it takes.

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About the author 

Anni

Hi! I'm a life coach, a Certified MBTI® Practitioner, and a mentor for stressed out introverts and highly sensitive people. I used to be one myself! My mission is to help you discover your true self and create a life you ACTUALLY like.

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  1. Really good advice! I love inspirational quotes, especially fitness ones because I know that they work when I need motivation to go to the gym. I find it weird when they don’t do anything for other people, but it’s probably the same thing — they’re not targeting the right feeling!

    I love lifting weights and working out, so seeing these memes just encourages me to do it because I know that I can and am getting better every week. For people who are struggling with fitness or are scared of braving the gym the same quotes are just reminding them of what they’re not doing, and how far they are from the fit person in the meme. It’s all about perspective!

    1. Hi Erika, thank you for reading and commenting. 🙂 That’s a very good point – quotes only work when they are targeting the right feeling. I like fitness quotes too, but I can totally see how they could just annoy or depress people who are really struggling.

  2. Hi Anni, I loooove your blog ! Sometimes it seems to me that you are describing my life, my struggles, my pain – that you are reading my mind and my soul. I ‘m 57 years old, I feel young, and full of hope. When my anxiety progressed ( here I´d like to quote your words: to the point of the 24/7 dread) I was guided miraculously to the wonderful content of your blog! You have no idea how much you have helped me!!! Thank you so much! I send you a lot of hugs and kisses!!! ( sorry if my English is not very good – it isn’t my first nor even second language, I speak Russian and Spanish :), but I really wanted to tell you how much I appreciate you work!)

    1. Hi Elena, thank you SO much for the kind words! Your English is definitely better than my Russian or Spanish. 🙂

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